Rocio is pure creativity, and like so many creative souls, her emotion is raw and earnest. She feels so much, and to know her is like touching the sun. I love this project for its fearlessness and encourage you to watch this dynamite of a woman closely. She will only continue to do great things.


girl anachronism BY Rocio de Alba 

Experts say by the time we are three years old, our hippocampus, a portion of the brain that stores memories, has adequately matured to record our first palpable experiences. Coincidentally, that is the age I learned about death. This provoked the initial stages of a series of panic and anxiety attacks that would haunt me through adulthood. By age ten, I experienced further traumatic incidences that intensified the disorder. I became suicidal, unreasonably needy, and perpetually perceived catastrophic fates. By fourteen, a friend unveiled a powerful remedy that relieved all distress: alcohol! I self-medicated for years before finding sobriety, therapy, and a healthy lifestyle that demanded I deal with the underlining cause of my psychological malady --my fear of dying.

In 2006, I began an extensive research of Claude Cahun’s work for an essay. Cahun was a 19th century surreal artist who experimented with self-portraiture as a way to symbolically flee Nazi oppression. Using Cahun’s concept of photography as escapism, I began this theatrical series of self-portraits to deconstruct the agonizing physical and psychosomatic episodes I endured. I utilize certain digital practices, props, and hand-built installations to place myself in absurd realms manifested directly from the stream of irrational hallucinations that grew out of the attacks. And even though my prognosis is promising, I continue to produce abstract fantasy tableaux of neurosis and emotions of angst. They enlighten my comprehension of this disease and produce a cathartic therapeutic neurological relief stimulated by the photographic discipline itself.

“Photography saved my life. Every time I go through something scary...I survive by taking pictures.” -Nan Goldin